- Annika Suoma Frey
The back door

I got tired mingling over the daily question, unspoken, lingering, my body wondering: “Are you staying with me one more moment, one more day? Are you joining me or are you going to pull up and out again? Considering to end it all?” The day I trusted that my Soul indeed had chosen the perfect body for this lifetime and realised I don’t have to decide when it’s time to go…that she, this beautiful body of mine, will make this decision for me in Divine Timing…EVERYTHING changed. THE BACK DOOR I closed a door today Deleted an option That I considered
For many years By committing
To my body
Fully.
I promised her
That from this day on It’s no longer a decision
Between her and my mind
If we continue this life Together.
I found out That the missing piece To feeling fully safe
Is to commit
To this Sacred Union
Between her and me Is Trust.
Trusting That she always wants
What’s best for me.
She decides. I’m staying here
With her where I
Belong.
I trust her
To make the choice
When it’s time for me
To leave this planet. I close the back door
Of suicide
I left open
For all these years
Causing us so much pain Through my lack of Awareness.